Wow! I survived the holidays! I am here in the New Year!
I welcome the changes, though parts of me are dying,,,a new self is emerging.
I envision my daughter and I finally in our own place, living our lives to the fullest potential.
But…I am grounded in muck, my emotions are wild and my head cloudy.
With the winter, I find the need for withdrawal and introspection.
Knowing that in the spring, a new life will be sprouting.
This New year will reflect the person I always wanted to be~
The following entries I wrote on New Year 2004, they still very much relate~
I want…a bright future, with my daughter,
in the garden, healing animals.
I want…my health, and health for my family;
and wealth, enough to get by.
I want…to live peacefully, to be content with myself,
and with others.
I want…education, knowledge,
and for my mind to always want more!
I want…to laugh, to cry, to always be in tune with my emotions.
I want…to wake up everyday and do all of these.
I want…to smell incense, hug a tree, to pray and meditate
and to hear symphonies.
I want…to paint, draw, color;
in a book, in the air, or in my mind.
I want…to create, to imagine, to dream
and never stop…
I want…to never stagnate, procrastinate,
complain, be ignorant or non-compassionate.
I want…to see the world, to explore
to live my life the way…
Dreams of a life
that has not happened yet.
Memories of a life
Taunted by the mind.