About ~

I have battled with depression, anxiety and asthma most of my life; but after my mom’s passing I couldn’t fight anymore. In 2005 I was hospitalized for a mental breakdown and severe asthma exacerbation. Shortly after, my doctor suggested I be placed on disability.

Before my mom’s death, I thought I was a “super woman.” I was working, going back to school in my late 30’s, raising my daughter, trying to resolve my failing relationship, and taking care of my mother through her war with lung cancer. The shattering truth? There is no such thing as “superwoman.”

My road to healing mental illness has had many diagnoses and/or labels; Grief, Agoraphobia, Depression, Anxiety, Bi-polar, ADD, PTSD, to name a few. The loss of my mother was only the beginning of my journey. After the initial grief and trauma of her death; I began to remember and learn things about myself and my life that I wouldn’t have if she were still here protecting me. Abuse (physical, mental and sexual), alcoholism and drugs, are a few traumas that I had buried. The upside of a shattered life is you have the opportunity to put it back together the way you want. The downside is you can’t begin to mend your life until you face what you’ve been running from. I feel like I am out of the darkest part of the tunnel and have my sights set to the other end of the tunnel that holds enlightenment, wisdom, love and victory over my fears. It doesn’t really matter to me how long my journey is, as long as I continue to learn and heal. I presently live with my teenage daughter (who struggles with depression as well), and our three very loving cats.

My dreams are to live healthy, mentally, spiritually and physically. To be a good mother and role model. To maintain everlasting loving relationships with the people in my life. My goals are to be off disability and find my niche in the career field. I love to write and create. I am an animal lover and humanitarian. I hope one day I will be able to give back, to my community and to the Universe.

Everyday I struggle with my illnesses, but the more I learn to love myself and my life, the easier it gets. This blog is a place for me to share, ponder or randomly rant. If I enlighten or inspire along the way than even better!!!  

Welcome 🙂      

 

me and serenity   

My beautiful daughter and I:)

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81 thoughts on “About ~

  1. I admire your honesty. It must take a lot of strength, not just to survive but to look on the positive side of life. I admire the fact that you keep fighting and won’t give up.

    • Thank you so much. Your words mean a lot to me. I guess it comes down to a choice; whether to be negative or positive, and positive just feels better! 🙂

  2. Congratulations to you on your resolve to move beyond your labels. It certainly hasn’t been an easy road you’ve traveled. I enjoyed reading your about page and applaud your courage and honesty. Your daughter is beautiful!!

    • Wow, what an awesome compliment(s)!!!! Thanks!!!
      I’m following your blog, looking forward to your posts.
      Good luck to you too!! 🙂

  3. Thanks for taking the time to follow my blog. It’s really appreciated. I checked in to look at yours and was so inspired and humbled by what I read. Your posts are filled with honesty and above all hope. You’ve earned a new follower in me 🙂

    • No problem, your blog is great. Thanks for following mine and the compliments!! It’s nice to be connected. 🙂

  4. I know this is probably not as exciting as it first was, but I’m nominating you for the Liebster Award. I admire your journey so much, and this is my way of showing it. I’ve chosen to tell you this way because I am unable to find a contact button on your blog. I’m sure my eyes are crossed, and it’s me, forgive me for that. Congratulations

    • That is truly kind of you and I am honored; however, I’m not sure I can get through another one!!! It was difficult to find another 11 nominees with under 200 followers on this last liebster. I hope you don’t mind, but I am going to have to let someone else have a chance. Thanks again!!!

    • You just brought tears to my eyes!!! Thanks so much Nicole, I will check it out later today. I am so grateful we are connected. ❤

  5. I have nominated you for the Liebster Award.
    http://kittomalley.com/2014/06/12/liebster-award/

    The award’s four rules are:
    1) Provide 11 facts about yourself.
    2) Answer 11 questions created by your nominating party (me).
    3) Nominate 11 blogs.
    4) Provide them with 11 questions of your own to answer.

    My eleven questions for you are:
    1) Where and how do you like to write?
    2) When did you start blogging?
    3) What motivates you to write?
    4) Do you consider yourself a disciplined writer? Why or why not?
    5) Are you an early bird or a night owl?
    6) Who is your greatest supporter?
    7) What do you consider your greatest triumph?
    8) What is your favorite memory?
    9) What do you do for fun?
    10) What adjective best describes you?
    11) What would be your ideal vacation?

    • Thanks so much, but I’ve already responded to two liebsters. I don’t think I can do another one! Thanks again though, I’m honored. 🙂

    • Awww! Thank you so much. I already did one, I’m not sure if I can do another one. I much appreciate it though! Oh, and it is a hyperlink! Hehe!

      • Hehe. 🙂 I know, I don’t like hyperlinks. They scare me. 🙂 I didn’t expect you to do another one as you had already answered so many questions about yourself. 🙂 Have a good day.

    • You are too sweet! Thanks so much! It means a lot to me. I’ve already participated in the Very Inspiring Blogger award; but I am very honored, thank you! ❤

  6. I’m on the exact same journey… It feels so good knowing I’m not alone. I’ve lost 90% of my family, not through death, but because they do not believe in mental illness and have labeled me the black sheep; Kate being Kate; Just get over it already. Do you know what that does? That sentence alone, mid panic attack, makes me want to punch the person saying it right in the throat. (I am 100% anti violence) If you know little about mental illness, please don’t insult me by telling me to just get over it. If I wasn’t so consumed with fear, and it was in fact as easy as you make it out to be, I would GLADLY do so.

    I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. My mom and my dad are all I have left in this world. And my son of course, who happened to inherit some of my “issues” as my ex husband would say. Just wanted to stop by and say hello to someone on the same journey I’m on. I wish you nothing but strength to defeat every obstacle that comes your way. Mental illness is something I hope to one day over come, but in the mean time, I’m content in getting to know who I really am and what my purpose here is. Hope you have a great, successful day.

    ~Kate

  7. Thank you for stopping by my blog and for liking one of my posts. I pray God to visit you in your time of need because He is the only One that can change your situation. Try and believe in His word and invite Him into your life and lay all your trust on Him and forget whatever the doctors have told you. God’s blessings to you in the name of Jesus Christ.

  8. Thanks for the like yesterday…I know, I have been through it for over a decade and it is very much possible to turn things around…In the end it is a way of looking or perception at things…

    • What a wonderful award! Thanks so much! I will post a response as soon as I can! Thanks for making me smile today! 🙂 ❤

  9. Pingback: Sunshine Blogger Award | Charitha Subramanyam

    • Thanks so much Charitha! Your kind words made me well up! I will post my ‘acceptance’ as soon as I can! 🙂

  10. I love what you said here: “The upside of a shattered life is you have the opportunity to put it back together the way you want. The downside is you can’t begin to mend your life until you face what you’ve been running from.”

    It is so very true! Bless you on your journey!

  11. Hi, just stopping by to say thanks for following my blog. I really appreciate it! Here’s to the little daydreamer in us all, the one who is determined to stay positive throughout, and inspire others to do the same 🙂

  12. Hi, I’m glad I stumbled upon your blog. I hope you continue to do well on your healing journey. I also write about mental health issues… anxiety/panic attacks. Both myself and my daughter suffered from them, but now are panic free. It’s nice to connect with you! Take care, Jenny

  13. Hey gorgeous soul sister I didn’t know you had a blog. Imagine how long we will be talking for when we finally meet. I hope in some way I can help in your healing. That’s what soul sisters do. Love u ❤️

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