New Season, New Moon, New Beginnings

new beginnings

Happy Spring everyone! Though snow is in the forecast for NH tomorrow, I can feel new life stirring around the corner.

It was an extremely drawn out winter for me. If you read my last update, then you know, between bed bugs, breakdowns and trips to the hospital, there wasn’t much time for myself.

No time for self means depression. Depression is inevitable for me in the winter; but, this winter was especially gloomy.

That’s behind me now. Spring is here, even though it’s taking it’s time to show.

There was a new moon this past Monday. Perfect time to set forth a new attitude.

New season, new moon, new beginnings!!!

Next month, I will be starting an herbal apprentice course. I have wanted to take this course for around 16yrs. So, it’s a big step. I am terrified, but the kind of fear that comes when you feel deep inside you will change.

I will definitely keep you posted on my progress.

Speaking of keeping you posted…I feel terrible that I haven’t blogged much.

I am so proud of myself that I finally started this blog and managed to hold onto it for a couple of years. I am always thinking of things I want to write about; but never make it to fruition.

With Spring’s renewal I renew my dedication to my blog. I vow to spend more time and effort into my blog and my writing.

I have finally made it to the point where my mental illness can no longer hold me back.

It may stop me in my tracks. It may take a day from me here and there. It may even break me at times; but, it can not stop me.

Everyday I begin again.

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Never Give Up

If you’re struggling with an addiction,

or a mental illness

infliction…

NEVER GIVE UP!

Whether you’re in the gutter

reaching

for another sip

of alcohol,

or sitting in a penthouse

denying

your reflection

as you snort that line…

Maybe you’re frozen with fear

as your heart pumps out that hit…

NEVER GIVE UP!

You ARE special

Stop the Self hate

Try Again…

You might be in the corner

of your room,

curled up infant style

wondering if your life

is worth while.

Maybe you’re pressing

a blade into your skin

feeling like you just can’t win.

Your life WILL turn around,

clarity will be found.

NEVER GIVE UP!

Maybe you haven’t 

reached such despair,

laughing like you don’t care.

When you fall with

no one to call…

NEVER GIVE UP!

It’s just your turn

to move through

the pain

of growth.

I know the tears

feel endless 

attempting to release

frustrations and loneliness.

You are NOT Alone!

NEVER GIVE UP!

I’ve been the addict, the mental patient and the joker laughing.

A life of pain, abuse and darkness, 

I survived…I AM alive!

I will NEVER GIVE UP!

Eventually through transformation,

the veil lifts,

enlightenment and regeneration

are the gifts…

when you

NEVER GIVE UP!