I sat before you and closed my eyes
introducing myself in my mind.
Inhaling your essence
Exhaling love in exhange.
One continuous flow our breath became.
I felt the chill of the soil around my feet
where your roots lay range.
Feeling the nutrients rise
up from Mother,
I felt your feminine power
and started to cry.
Missing my mom who had died.
A daughter’s tears
of failure and grief.
My heart met yours
and green and gold colors
swirled through and around us.
You held me, and filled me with love
My sadness relieved.
Our hearts beating,
our synchronized breathing,
I continued to follow the flow,
upward and out.
Arms reaching,
Branches in the sun.
Our spirits connected,
There was no doubt
We for a moment were one.
I opened my eyes
and my mind.
Lost track of time
Was a pleasure to meet you
My dear friend White Pine
Poetry
“Poetry is a deal of joy and pain and wonder, with a dash of the dictionary.”
~Khalil Gibran
Writing poetry is my releasing of powerful emotions into a secret language that some may interpret but will never fully decipher; therefore I can express freely without exposing myself completely.~*
<3
Mother Earth’s Quilt
In honor of the 50th Earth Day, I wanted to share a poem I wrote when I was in college. It was an assignment on Diversity and was published in the Vanguard Book of our school. During this Pandemic our Earth has been healing. I hope when this is over, we can focus on how to keep our Planet healthy. Peace and Love 💚
Mother Earth’s Quilt
In a Secret Garden beyond twilight,
they gathered round in a circle.
Father Sky, Mother Earth,
and creatures of the night.
The Great Sun and Grandmother Moon,
All the Gods and Goddesses
would be there soon.
The Fairies danced for they knew
what they were about to witness.
Never before and Never again,
would there be a creation quite like this.
The circle formed and they all held hands.
Everyone…from Goddess to Gnome.
All equal, all One, no one left alone.
A miracle transpired, colors filled the Earth.
Their Unity and Love created a birth.
The human race was born.
Mother Earth loved all of us.
Her Quilt kept her warm.
Rainbows of people, innocent and new,
lived harmoniously together, it was all they knew.
Each patch unique, each a different color.
Yet connected with a thread of Gold,
woven from the Gods and Goddesses,
giving us our Soul.
Created in Gods image with Love in the heart,
but we were only human and fear set us apart.
The Quilt became tattered, the colors faded,
hopes were battered.
Trial and tribulation,
War and segregation.
Mother Earth wept, naked and cold.
She prayed her children would find again,
their common thread of Gold.
Slowly and deliberately, many lifetimes later,
more and more awaken to the memory of their birth,
Unity, Freedom, and Love for Mother Earth.
One by one, the patches renew with all their glory.
This is Mother Earth’s Quilt,
her children, and her story.
by Maria Fairbrother
One of those Days
Some days I am ecstatic with enlightenment and joy,
I can flow easily and I feel blessed and loved.
Some days, I feel broken and useless, and unworthy.
I feel incapable and poor, and hopeless.
I feel I will never get up that mountain top and see the view.
I will always be at the foothill scrubbing the mess others left.
I am full of anxiety and grief and depression.
I use my tools like grounding and centering and acknowledging the many different aspects of myself. I validate them and hold space for them. I recognize my triggers and breathe.
Some days these tools work and some days I still cry through my housework, shake through simple tasks and my heart hurts as I panic about everything.
These days turn into a feat to survive without being swept away.
These days turn into sleepless nights.
Some days I can flow, some days I can barely bear to breathe.
Today is one of those days.
Winter Haiku
(Pic credit) Winter by Galder
Oh, January!
So long, cold, bitter and dark
Leaving me alone
The New Year hope fades.
Resolute, Transformation
Hibernate and Cry
Forced to look within
Release what no longer serves
Reborn in the Spring
Old Man Winter’s Love
Brutal, Strong and Fatherly
Lessons learned, Growth gained.
Tears of Gratitude
The highest risk of stroke has passed
yet lingers over me
The awe and shock ever last
I sit and contemplate gingerly
Tears of gratitude
fill my eyes
How lucky I am to be alive
The gift of life seldom realized
until you almost die.
I ponder on how fragile health can be
and all that my body does for me
An amazing machine in constant motion
despite any given thought or notion
I send love to every cell of my being
to know it has my back is truly freeing,
I’ve been so aggressive in my journey of healing
Not listening to how parts of myself were feeling
Thinking I had to hurry up and succeed
Remorse for pushing so hard to exceed
It took my artery to tear and bleed
to teach me to slow down and breathe
I open my heart and let joy pump through me
my blood, and arteries,
I release and set free my aggression
Allowing a newfound respect for my body
Thankful to Creator for this lesson
Life is a precious gift, each moment a tiny present
I sit quietly in gratitude and cherish every second
The Dark Side of my Mind
(pic credit; Light in the darkness by Sjerz)
The dark side of my mind,
is not my favorite place.
Lurks in corners, fragments of
memories, I fervently tried to erase.
The darkness fills me with fear,
yet gentles itself as I become near.
I approach, and I embrace
the dark side of my mind,
like before & now again,
Love is what I find.
Love for pieces of me,
left behind, and alone.
I have come back to them,
to bring them home.
Now I see, the darkness
is a part of me,
as well as the light.
There is no reason
for these two parts
to fight.
The dark side of my mind,
though not my favorite place,
I integrate, I heal,
and I listen, for the call
of and welcome,
the dark side of my mind.
Grateful for it’s beckon
and assisting me
in setting my mind free.
Rainy Day Healing
Raindrops on the window
Wild winds blow the tree tops
Candles are lit
Incense perfumes the air
Sitting still, I close my eyes
White light fills me
Third eye goes blind
Ego distracts
Spirit pulls me back
Be calm
Listen to the silence
The echoes of the wind
speed up with urgency
Tree branches sway to the turbulence
Dancing with the storm.
Gray skies embrace me with neutrality. All that was is set free. All that will be,
is here and now. Open my arms to receive the love. Closing my eyes again
my third eye beams indigo, letting ego go…
Deeply rooted with the trees, I learn their dance. Cleansed by the rains and wind.
I allow the healing in….
Wounded Woman
pic credit/Cold Wounds by badccintra
Wounded Woman
You can tell by the look in her eyes.
A beautiful sadness, silent cries.
The lines of her face
mark passages of time.
The scars and stories, she can’t erase.
Wounded Woman
She carries immense weight
on her shoulders.
A lifetime of trauma and pain;
but, the heaviness doesn’t stop her
from dancing in the rain.
Wounded Woman
twirled and thrusted
until she broke through
to the other side.
Alas, in Great Spirit she trusted,
and set herself free,
never again to hide.
Wounded Woman
She wove her wounds
like an intricate web of Grandmother Spider;
as she journeyed deep inside her.
She found the truth and beauty
of her own old soul.
Her spirit held all the selves, the keys.
Thus, Wounded Woman…became whole. …<3
What Do We Do With Grief?
Twelve years today,
your spirit whirled away,
far out of reach.
It took all of these years
to move from the constant grief,
to face the fears
of a life without you.
To see through the darkness
that you held the light to.
In my heart the nostalgia sustains.
It’s the memories I keep
that gives me the courage to face each day.
It’s been a treacherous journey just to get this far,
I wear proudly on my soul, the scar.
Today I feel that grief again,
like a dam trying to hold the flood
I tense up.
Afraid to feel,
my logic scrambles, how do we cope?
Throw yourself in homework,
paint, create!
Channel the grief for the better.
For better my spirit screamed, now that’s just mean!
What do we do with grief?
We feel it,, we let the sorrow in, we honor the loss, we sit with that pain
because reality is, my life will never be the same.
Her smile, laughter, and wisdom
are not in the flesh,
yes, she’s with me, but it’s not the same.
It’s not fair, my sadness weeps,
my daughter doesn’t have a grandmother
and it’s fucking sad, my grief bellows.
I let the flood take over me,
run through me, and fill me.
In the arms of my daughter
I set the tears free.
I am so blessed to have her,
we are like you and me!
It is true, I have lost part of myself forever,
and it is also true we are all together.
It’s okay to feel sad
my sorrow whispers.
It won’t consume
like it once had.
A cardinal appears
and I know you are near.
This cardinal appeared a few hrs ago, right after I finished a good cry.
RIP my angel ❤
Roots
My roots run deep into the earth
where the insects roam.
My hair blows in the wind
flowing with the sky.
My arms open wide to hug the world;
Yet,
people hurt me, abuse me, take
me for granted, and cut me down;
But,
it is my destiny
to be a tree.
pic by danfador@pixabay